over it...(i hope!)

just got over being sick for a week. a full week of being in bed most of the time, miserable and slightly delirious with fever, aches, bronchial stuff, and, in general all kinds of miseries...

there were moments when i felt it would never end. but am feeling much better now, tho a bit shaken and weak.

what else. am looking forward to Hetal coming to visit next week... I hope we get along and don't argue too much... and that she gets to have some sunshine and mildish Cali weather and that it stops Raining! i guess i should do an anti-rain dance to the SF rain goddesses.

am so annoyed that my sickness seems to have set me back in terms of my new year's resolutions. those of exercise, keeping things organized... also of getting on top of what to Do with the precious time on earth.................................................... (yes those are lots of dots... thinking dots.............................. brooding dots......................................................................................)

finally

i feel as though, finally, today i return to the land of the alive. although still coughing and weak and breathless and lightheaded at the slightest effort - like walking to the driveway, for instance- i could today taste the juice again of being here, and present. though,at times, it tasted more like tingly bitter echinacea than anything else. (the last few days i've been in bed more than 90 percent of the time,sick with fever, aches, chills, coughs, you-name-it...)

quotes from Nisha make life better

my friend Nisha is one of the sweetest people i know. and she gets these quotes of the day delivered to her inbox, and she sends them to me (and others) sometimes, if she really likes them.

after my frazzled morning, and my annoying conversation (see below) i saw this from Nisha. thank you, nishaji!

We must pass through solitude and difficulty, isolation and silence,
to find that enchanted place where we can dance our clumsy dance and
sing our sorrowful song. But in that dance, and in that song, the
most ancient rites of our conscience fulfill themselves in the awareness
of being human.

-- Pablo Neruda

taking a break

... do you ever have a conversation with someone who just makes you want to scream epithets and say, "you're wrong! you're so wrong!!!!!!" argh. i just did.

... had a rough morning too... for *various* reasons was late heading out the door. not late, mind you, early. and then, for various other reasons got a bit later. the thing is i was still on time and not late. but today was one of those days i had been determined to be *early* which did not happen.

all the aforementioned and yet not discussed reasons could have been managed individually.

But together they proved to be stressful.

and then, the day started going better, after i realized that after all, i may not have been early to work, but at least i wasn't Late.

but then, after lunch i had the aforementioned conversation with an aggravating person. in person, which is worse than over the phone, cuz then you have to act all polite, and you can't make silly faces into the air.

mental note to self. do Not Insist on conversing extensively with people that you already know aggravate you, especially if the conversation is after lunch and that lunch consisted of pizza.

because the combo of:
later-than-wanted-to-be-morning + pizza (no matter how little) + aggravating-person-who-just-won't-be-reasonable-and-lives-on-another-planet-and-yet-you-have-to-deal-with-every-day = stomache ache.

whew. there.
feel better.
am chewing gum...

if this made no sense, don't worry. it means that you, my friend, are Normal.
but, thanks for "listening..."

got a call from pappa last night when i was asleep. he's in india right now. 

I BABU DESI (I.B.A.B.U.D.)

Indian Born, American Brought Up Desi.
me

crazy day

at work.
the prospective students have taken over the campus!